Losing a family member-even if they're furry is quite devastating. I had been practically begging my husband to put her out of her misery for months to no avail. Then, he finally made the appointment. After that, I was scared and petrified. Setting the date, time and place for her death was so different than knowing we were "going to" in the near future. I feel guilty and evil. I can rationalize that I shouldn't and that she was truly suffering, but now I feel like I took her from the family. I know I technically didn't but the tears streaming down my husband and son's faces make me feel otherwise. We all know and understand it was necessary and that we were all selfish for keeping her to make ourselves happy. I know I'm not evil, I know I'm not a murderer but it doesn't make it FEEL any better.

I didn't have to wipe up any slobber off the floor last night or this morning. I had no one to walk last night or this morning. No one barked when the doorbell rang yesterday afternoon. No one wagged their tail when I walked in the door last night. No one nudged my arm while I watched TV last night. There's no little clicks of nails on the floor and no one under my feet. No one was in my way when I vacuumed either. How is it that I now don't think those things are annoying?? She's only been gone 24 hours and I know it will get better, but my heart REALLY hurts right now.

 

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